that Im going to mess up, that hes going to die while Im there, that Im not going to be able to get in the exercise I need after this second baby is born, that Im a horrible parent, that Ill never get into the habit of going outside with my children. And that in the busyness and necessities of life, my desire to study will again just slip away in the mess of children and exercise. Somehow, I must place study as the priority - the kingdom of God, not of man.
Its all that matters.
