I love the concept of time

The ebb and the flow of it, not to mention the breakdown.
There are so many ways to look at it.
In looking at the new year, I realize that there are 52 weeks. this means, that roughly, there are 50 easily started and marked off chances to gain/lose a habit - if you follow that you could attempt one every week, and they take 21 days to ingrain.

Technically, you could do one every day, but its far easier to tackle three things, then 30.

My first goal, is to start to get up at 5AM each day. There are multiple reasons for me to choose that hour.
First of all, its the earliest hour any "sane" (That being a relative term) person would get up at. 4Am just sounds - like you couldnt have gotten enough sleep. Anything between 5-9 really, is, in my mind, good. After 9, you run the risk of either people thinking you stayed up *way* too late, or you're just freaking lazy.

My internal clock seems to be set to 5 though, always has. Even in high school, I could easily get up at 5.

Also, this coincides with bedtimes. 9, as far as Im concerned, is the most reasonable hour to go to bed at. You could push to to 10, even 11, and still get enough sleep, getting up at 5. 8 doesnt sound to extreme, if you arent feeling well. But after 11, for most adults, anyways, Its getting *late*. And again, before 8 - Either you are on deaths door, or ...

Well, to be honest, I understand, that there are - occasions. Depression and mental illness, for example, bork any attempt to control your hours. For example - I wake up every morning at about 330 AM.
This obviously puts a dent into my attempts to get up at 5. And it doesnt matter when Ive gone to bed. Im up at 330.
Over the last year, Ive come to call it my journalling hour.

Interesting to note, this doesnt occur when I dont have alcohol in the evenings. So this of course, becomes habit 3. Or rather, the breaking of the habit. Or maybe substitution will be a better phrase. Non-caffinated tea, in the evenings, like I used to have, instead of R&C, may serve me, and my waistline, much better.

So this is my January. 3 healthy, hard to conquer habits.
I have a list, theres over 30 things on it, of little habits and such that I want to adopt over the course of 2010. These are the three most basic changes I can make in my life, to make myself happier.

Why will I be happier? thats a good question. Why not stay up whenever I want, why not sleep in every morning, if I can, since the kids let me sleep easily till 9 - if I want to?

Well, the human body needs, craves, wants regular sleep hours. Thats the first one, and its huge. If you want to try to conquer depression, this really is the most basic step to a healthier soul. Everything in your chemistry is tied to the light, and your waking hours. And 8-ish good hours of sleep, at the right time, cannot be substituted by anything.
Discipline, is another reason. The human *mind* and soul crave this. Routine. Its a niche where we will be comfortable.
If I am up at 5, I can do housework, and yoga, and even get breakfast ready, before my kids even get up. This gives me uninterrupted time. This gives me peace and quiet. This gives me a good start, to be in a good mood for the day.
It gives me more time for the kids.

There is no bad here.
So.

Looking at all of this, I think that the one that I will actually have to start with, is the Tea. I know theres still a few weeks, untill January starts, but... really, who the hell cares? January 1st is not a magic number. Im going to get out my kettle, and clean it today.
I might even shine my sink.

But right now, its 4 AM. Ive played WoW, and this would be my journal entry, I suppose. Alot of my writing at this hour goes into my actual written journal though. Thoughts and feelings I dont feel comfortable with people reading. Maybe after I die, someone will go throught all that crap and wonder why I even bothered. they will learn how hard life really was for me, and just - toss it all away.

How bad is it that my top two muses at the moment are a senile 100 year old man, and a teenage psychopath?