Oh yeah....

theres more current pics of the kids on my facebook. If you need the link, just give me a comment, and Ill repost it.

All right....

I suppose its time for an update.

There really isnt much new. Jade is crawling, trying desperately to walk, falls down alot. Eva talks our ears off - or maybe I should say "lectures"...its funny, but a bit disturbing. Her tone is *so* forceful, and I have to wonder if thats what I sound like all the time.

If it is, I know why and where its from... So I just have to work on changing it. No one needs to sound like that all the time.

Lvl 41 mage. slowly working on a hunter on another server - blood elf, but shes only lvl 3. I try just to do one quest with her per day... definitely an alt. Have a shaman Ill have to work with eventually on another server yet, but.... Im not ready for that yet.

Tiggers pretty much a non functional being right now. Between his cousins suicide and just life piling up... I worry for him alot. In as much as I really worry about anything.

I have new pics of the kids, both taken in the last week or so....

Akiva, with pigtails


Jade.... being Jade.


and for comparisons sake....



Jade is in the Tigger outfit, Akiva, at about 5 months, is in the white.
Jades about 8 months.
*giggles* both asleep in the same bouncer. The differance is, that Eva *loved* the bouncer, Jade... not so much.

Today

never happened.
If it did, I didnt know about it.

Its just better this way.

Bad Day

As if the bad mental health days Ive been having wernt enough.
This afternoon Claytons cousin killed himself. Turned on the engine of his car and locked himself in the garage.
He leaves behind a wife and 5 year old daughter.
He had pretty much the life that Clayton wished he had.

Shock doesnt cover the whole of how we feel.

gacked from nbrooks

60 As a 1930s wife, I am Superior Take the test!

Wow

Lvl 36 mage, and finally have a decent guild, I think.. *yay!!!!!*
its about bloodywell time!

In other news - Eva now has this little thing of running around saying "Oh Duck"...its cute, but only because its innocent. She learned the word "Duck" from her baby Einstien videos, and for a while, it was her fave word... everything was a Duck, for a while. Now, its "Oh Duck"... and you just cant help but laugh at it.

Jade started trying to cruise a few nights ago - thats right, at 7 months. He just started crawling tonight.
Why do I think Im about to be run off my feet?

Eva also has a potty now, let the fun *there* begin as soon as I am brave enough to buy pull-ups. We are also working on the word "bees" (please). She doesnt like this very much - as what she could once just have handed to her, she now has conditions placed on it. We have already had many temper tantrums, and are expecting many more.

I started a "new job" of sorts the other night.
Im no longer a receptionist, but now just a personal trainer. Ill have to start my official courses and IPFA certification probably in the fall. Lots and lots of hard work which Im not looking forward to... at least not tonight when I am depressed, lonely and... well...
lets just say today was *not* a good mental health day.

Tomorrow is a new day, and it cant get much worse... sooooooo
yeah.

I just want a reason. Something to make sense of it all.

Ironic, almost....

People who I haven't spoken to in ages, all logged thier voices today, remembering and wishing me well....
But the people who used to call themselves my best friends?
Couldn't even bother to log into count.

Guess you do eventually learn who your real friends are, dont you?
So thanks to Keven, and Allen, and Maria. To Bernadine and to to Paula.
Thank you all, for wishing me a Happy Birthday, one way or another.

You know.....

Everybody always preaches on how God loves everyone, and how we are to *only* love God.
I wonder why in todays culture, they never preach that we are to *only* fear God. (Deut 6:13) Same chapter, both are mentioned; almost the same breath.
Imagine if the only thing we feared was God... not terrorists, not poverty, not spiders, not being alone... just God. My bet is that it would affect peoples behavior far more than anything else.

But of course... you *cant* preach about fearing God - people are just too dumb to understand that you can love Him, and fear him, and that would confuse them... we *cant* preach or teach anything more difficult than "Jesus Loves Me" oh no - that would be....

treating people like divinely created beings, instead of darwinistic animals ;)

The Tower of anthallaxx....

anthrax, anthologies, anthalmisery... whatever.
oh how I hate you.

Star? where are you when I need you?

*signed off by the miserable woman who just realized that she has dried baby puke on her arm - the baby she put to bed four hours ago.........

New Shoes!!!!

pretttttttty.........

that is of course, if the link works.....
oh yeah, and I got them in black, of course, not white...