Ive got this lunatic friend....

and I adore her.  But I need some advice.
Her facebook posts annoy me to such an extent, I could cry.  The only thing she ever posts about is to whine when Farmville is doing things she doesnt like. 
She has never messaged me, never so much as sent me a peep, or a poke.  Nary a comment or a bit of flair.
Over 40 people, have de-friended her recently.  I have no doubt as to why.  Still makes me feel bad for her, particularly since shes complained about not understanding why they are doing it.
Its my only way to contact her.  Shes my only family in the city.
Oh, I guess not all her posts are about Farmville.  She also uses it to complain bitterly about everything.
In fact - even in person, this woman complains about *everything* - never a positive comment, never a good word to be said.

Still - family.......

I want to defriend her.  I really do.

But I dont like burning bridges you may need later on.
little help, please?

You know........

As the end of another year comes - I realize, I dont really have any regrets - but I do have questions... and they are allll about the boys *laughs*.
Cant remember which old movie star said her only regret was there there were some men, she should have kissed, and didnt... well let me tell you - I cant add up how many times *thats* been true.

So some questions that will never be answered...
Dan... when you had me over for dinner that night, just exactly what *were* you thinking? Because to this day, I cant for the life of me remember our conversation, or have any idea what was on your name, and Ive always wondered if I missed an opportunity there.  You were *such* a nice guy.
Parv... Was it me, or her?  How did you *always* end up with my best friend?
Bishop... WTF *was* that? Honestly.
Sterling... Im not sure you ever knew how much I *really* liked you.  I should have just kissed you the one time I had a chance.

And then I moved...
and Nanaimo, I learned a whole new, and utterly confusing ball game.
I learned that guys, particularly Christian guys, do this... thing.....
They take you out, they take you for dinners, drive you everywhere, spend every freaking minute with you, and then deny you are dating.  You're "just friends".
Except experience has told me that there is *no*such* thing*.
Guys dont spend that much time with a girl they dont want.  Period.

SO honestly, N... WTF?  John? you were the strangest mo-fo, ever.  And in the end, Im glad *that* didnt happen.  You... the one dude I cant even remember your name - I met you, and you started hanging with us, and coming everywhere, and then just disappeared.....(theres actually a few of these guys, throughout history...sooo confusing)  M? - *sighs*... yes, you were another hopeless "cool" one I crushed on terribly, hid the best I could, but still really regret never taking the chance.

Edmonton.  I shouldnt name actual names, and I wont name many, but one I will is, Jordan.  Jordan, you were the first guy I met here, and for almost a year, you attached yourself to me, took me everywhere, took me to restruants I couldnt afford, and spent far too much time with me.  Then, one day, you just - disappeared - like a ghost.  Honestly man.. WTELF?
T. - you were hopeless, I swear.  You went out with me between "real" girlfriends.  You were just nice enough to make me feel like I was important, and honestly, I think you were very good at useing people.  But I still think it could have been great.
M.  Telling my hubby, that you had wanted me, but I had too much baggage?  Sick, sick, sick.
D.  Cannot figure you out.  Honestly.  What, were you hoping Id break up with Tigger?

*sighs*...
I think thats most of you.
I sincerly hope that gets you all out of my system. And at least - makes me feel like I may be able to move past the questions of why.

So,

I didnt keep track quite as well as I wanted to, this year....
But, it looks like, this is the way it rolled.

Romeos top ten movies, of 2010 - in no particular order.

Easy Virtue
Jurassic Park (all three)
Sherlock Holmes
Star Trek
The Hurt Locker
Boondock Saints (1&2)
Snatch
Ironman (1&2)
Crank (1&2)
How to Train your Dragon.

Romeos top ten TV shows, of 2010

Supernatural
Deadwood
Glee
Greys Anatomy
True Blood
Dexter
Lost
The Mentalist
Bones
Numbers.

Romeos top ten songs, of 2010

World Outside - the Devlins
The Quest - Bryn Christopher
Dragula - Rob Zombie
It Doesnt Matter Anymore - Serena Ryder
Train in Vain - Annie Lennox
Through - George Micheal
Suicide Messiah - Black Label Society
Check my Brain - ALice in Chains
Bad Romance - Lady Gaga
Dead Bodies Everywhere - Korn

and special mention goes to Black Label Soceity, and Adam Lambert, for the most listened to *albums*

Top Ten Actors

Johnny Depp - everything.
Norman Reedus - Boondock Saints
Josh Holloway - Lost
 Ben Barnes - Narnia, Dorien Grey
Mark Salling - Glee
Alexander Skarsgard - True Blood
Slash
Taylor Kitsch - Friday Night Lights
Ian Somerholder - Vampire Diaries
Eric Dane - Greys Anatomy

Top Ten Actresses

Helena Bonham Carter - ALice in Woderland, Harry Potter
Emma Watson - Harry Potter
Anne Hathaway - Alice in Wonderland
Liv Tyler
Rachel LeFevre - Twilight
Ziyi Zhang - Memoirs of a Geisha
Aishwarya Rai- Bride and Prejudice 
Freida Pinto - Slumdog Millionaire
Chyler Leigh - Greys Anatomy
Yunjin Kim - Lost


and for those who care...
Top Ten muses, as voted on, by my own sense of madness...


Eduardo - Jorge Garcia
Georgette - Helena Bonham Carter
Renauld - Ben Barnes
Liam - Neorman Reedus
Robin - Johnny Depp
Corbin - Adrein Brody
Heph - Keith Richerds
Jackson - Ian McSHane
Max - its complicated.
Hannah - will edit to add her name, when my co writer reminds me of what it is.


I think, it would be fair to say, that this year, has been - difficult, at best.  between work and economic uncertainties, between Akiva and I both being diagnosed with aspergers/autism. (Jade too, probably before years end)  Akiva starting school.  and yes, stupid stresses - like the warcraft expansion, family arguments, my ongoing depression.
Ive started smoking again, something which I hate, but find useful, at the same time.
We've seen good things come too, though - and the gift of a mini-van, my son starting to say "I love you".  My sister returning from Vancouver.  Akiva doing well in school.  Alot of debts paid off.  The year, while - rough, has been - not a total loss.  
And theres been alot of personal growth, I know that.  The diagnoses of aspergers, for me, was - a wild revelation, that change my life, unlike anything else.  Ive learned that alot of my mental voices - particularly one that has caused me a great deal of stress and second guessing over the years, is actually leftover from my mother.  So now, we are working on "banishing" that terrible voice, that constantly tells me that Im "making it up" when Im sick, or angry, or "always turning mountains into molehills" when in actual fact, my emotions, and feelings in those times, are perfectly valid.


Next year, hopefully, will be less eventful. But with all the blessings added.