You know........

As the end of another year comes - I realize, I dont really have any regrets - but I do have questions... and they are allll about the boys *laughs*.
Cant remember which old movie star said her only regret was there there were some men, she should have kissed, and didnt... well let me tell you - I cant add up how many times *thats* been true.

So some questions that will never be answered...
Dan... when you had me over for dinner that night, just exactly what *were* you thinking? Because to this day, I cant for the life of me remember our conversation, or have any idea what was on your name, and Ive always wondered if I missed an opportunity there.  You were *such* a nice guy.
Parv... Was it me, or her?  How did you *always* end up with my best friend?
Bishop... WTF *was* that? Honestly.
Sterling... Im not sure you ever knew how much I *really* liked you.  I should have just kissed you the one time I had a chance.

And then I moved...
and Nanaimo, I learned a whole new, and utterly confusing ball game.
I learned that guys, particularly Christian guys, do this... thing.....
They take you out, they take you for dinners, drive you everywhere, spend every freaking minute with you, and then deny you are dating.  You're "just friends".
Except experience has told me that there is *no*such* thing*.
Guys dont spend that much time with a girl they dont want.  Period.

SO honestly, N... WTF?  John? you were the strangest mo-fo, ever.  And in the end, Im glad *that* didnt happen.  You... the one dude I cant even remember your name - I met you, and you started hanging with us, and coming everywhere, and then just disappeared.....(theres actually a few of these guys, throughout history...sooo confusing)  M? - *sighs*... yes, you were another hopeless "cool" one I crushed on terribly, hid the best I could, but still really regret never taking the chance.

Edmonton.  I shouldnt name actual names, and I wont name many, but one I will is, Jordan.  Jordan, you were the first guy I met here, and for almost a year, you attached yourself to me, took me everywhere, took me to restruants I couldnt afford, and spent far too much time with me.  Then, one day, you just - disappeared - like a ghost.  Honestly man.. WTELF?
T. - you were hopeless, I swear.  You went out with me between "real" girlfriends.  You were just nice enough to make me feel like I was important, and honestly, I think you were very good at useing people.  But I still think it could have been great.
M.  Telling my hubby, that you had wanted me, but I had too much baggage?  Sick, sick, sick.
D.  Cannot figure you out.  Honestly.  What, were you hoping Id break up with Tigger?

*sighs*...
I think thats most of you.
I sincerly hope that gets you all out of my system. And at least - makes me feel like I may be able to move past the questions of why.